Looking Forward

I am looking forward to…

  1. Having two days off in a row!  (Most of my career I’ve had only one whole day off per week.  When I had two days, they weren’t in a row.  Having two days off in a row is awesome!  It turns out two is different from one plus one!)
  2. Having the weekend for my days off!
  3. Going to family social events!  (They are usually scheduled on weekends.)
  4. Having my summers off!  (I like having big swaths of time for creative work and special projects.)
  5.  Traveling!
  6.  Not being censored!
  7. Being able to discuss “verboten” topics.  (Certain topics came up in class and the profs told us that they and we were “not allowed to discuss” some of them.  I thought that meant in class.  Later I learned that the profs couldn’t even discuss them outside of class!  I had never heard of an educational institution censoring discussions let alone prohibiting topics.  Plus, the Vatican really doesn’t want any Catholic discussing certain topics!)
  8. Not concerning myself with local politics.
  9. Not concerning myself with “tribal” thinking and parochial perfection.
  10. Trying new things!
  11. Growing!
  12. Living!
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All I Need

Things I need: things, qualities, anything that helps me enjoy living.

  1. Art
  2. Books, believing
  3. Coffee, cats, chocolate
  4. Dreams
  5. Experimenting
  6. Freedom, faith, flowers
  7. Grace
  8. Healing
  9. Integrity
  10. Joy
  11. Kindness
  12. Love, laughter
  13. Meaning, music
  14. No! (yes, I need “no” in my vocabulary, in my experience)
  15. Open-ness, open-views (figurative and literal)
  16. Peace, process, poetry, piano!
  17. Quiet
  18. Roses
  19. Sweetness
  20. Truth, tenderness
  21. Up (upward thinking/viewing and the notion of defying gravity)
  22. Value, veracity, validation
  23. Wholeness
  24. Xeric plants!  I love succulents!  I love plants that grow despite little water!
  25. Yes!
  26. Zero (yes, the number and the notion of zero; I find it both mystifying and so practical it’s nearly banal.)  I also like that (until the 20th century), there was no notion of zero in musical-math.

So, ask me on another day, and this list might have variations.  And I realize “need” can be defined in many ways and the degree of need can be easily argued.  For today, for this list, what I mean is: these are the things/ experiences/ values that I regularly treasure/ embrace/ consciously and deliberately choose as part of my (mostly daily) living and for which I am always grateful.

For a more starkly realistic list of what I truly need?

What all human-beings need:

  1. Love (somewhere, somehow, some experience of being loved/ valued and the opportunity to love other.)
  2. Some degree of shelter, some amount of food and water, some degree of personal hygiene, some opportunity for communication (even if only within one’s imagination)
  3. Meaning/ faith/ hope.

I think that’s probably all we need: sustenance for our bodies, relating for our social selves, hope for our souls.

Thanks be to God for all Your blessings, graces, mercies.  Praise be Jesus forever.  Lord, give me the grace to be ever-more grateful and gracious, ready to receive and to share.

 

 

Sounding Letters

Twelve Things I Liked About Spelling Tests In Grade-School

  1. I liked numbering the page lines.
  2. I liked listening for each word.
  3. I liked my confidence in spelling.
  4. I liked the A’s I achieved.
  5. I liked spelling the words: thinking through each letter.
  6. I liked sounding them out in my head.
  7. I liked the “metered” Q and A rhythm.
  8. I liked the review for self-checking at the end.
  9. I liked preparing for the tests.  Mom would quiz me at home.
  10. I liked writing the words: putting each letter onto the page.
  11. I liked writing them methodically.
  12. Mostly I liked listening and sounding in my head.  It was as though that process was rewarded with a printed word.  Seeing the word as a result of listening was magical!

This is such a simple memory, but as it is such a powerful memory of pleasurable confidence, which was atypical of me in relation to test-taking, I am grateful to remember this consistently positive experience of performance, particularly in the context of a judged test.

And what fun to remember the delight in sounding out each newly learned word in my mind’s ear, hearing and savoring each luscious letter.

Authenticity Affirmations

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I affirm my:

  1. Inner Child: My awe for simple goodness is grace, a gift to be treasured and celebrated.
  2. Sensitivity: Being aware of small changes helps me see the gift of each moment.
  3. Need for Solitude: Alone-ness with God, with myself, with quiet, is nourishment for my soul; it is to be honored (never deprecated).  To recognize a true need and to fulfill it is Godly.
  4. Voice: Until I can speak freely as I truly wish, writing uncensored is holy work; I must do it.  Writing is sacred art that honors the authentic soul.
  5. Need for Music: Hallelujah for the gift of Music!  Thank You, God, for making me a musician!
  6. Need for Color: Praise be Jesus for color!  And the gift of finely tuned sight!
  7. Courage: I face my fears with deeply fertile courage founded on Hope and Grace; I have faith in God and in myself; I have faith in Life.

 

1,000 Thanks, 156-185

  1. (156) Bach
  2. (157) Scarlatti
  3. (158) Handel
  4. (159) Couperin
  5. (160) Haydn
  6. (161) Mozart
  7. (162) Beethoven
  8. (163) Schubert
  9. (164) Mendelssohn
  10. (165) Chopin
  11. (166) Schumann
  12. (167) Liszt
  13. (168) Brahms
  14. (169) Faure
  15. (170) Debussy
  16. (171) Ravel
  17. (172) Saint-Saens
  18. (173) Poulenc
  19. (174) Satie
  20. (175) Massiaen
  21. (176) Rachmaninoff
  22. (177) Dvorak
  23. (178) Scriabin
  24. (179) Bartok
  25. (180) Copland
  26. (181) Ives
  27. (182) Barber
  28. (183) Britten
  29. (184)  Puccini
  30. (185) Granados
Thank You, Lord, for composers, especially “classical” ones, most especially those who wrote so well for piano!  This is the canvas for the tapestry of my life!

1,000 Thanks: First 155

  1. 0305031343aLife,
  2. love
  3. home,
  4. belonging,
  5. safety,
  6. joy,
  7. truth,
  8. The Eucharist,
  9. peace,
  10. justice,
  11. mercy,
  12. beauty,
  13. music,
  14. art,
  15. books,
  16. coffee,
  17. cats,
  18. good food,
  19. trees,
  20. flowers,
  21. birds,
  22. the ocean,
  23. the whole earth,
  24. the universe!,
  25. seasons,
  26. last night’s moon,
  27. blue skies,
  28. breathable air,
  29. drinkable water,
  30. hot water for showers,
  31. all the ways we can make music
  32. and share music,
  33. all the ways we can communicate,
  34. friendship,
  35. laughter,
  36. silence,
  37. quiet,
  38. tranquility,
  39. prayer,
  40. education,
  41. travel,
  42. freedom,
  43. permanence
  44. and change,
  45. passages,
  46. time
  47. and eternity,
  48. space
  49. and transcendence,
  50. being
  51. and doing,
  52. compatibility,
  53. male
  54. and female,
  55. adult
  56. and child,
  57. dancing,
  58. bees,
  59. sweet things,
  60. savory things,
  61. all flavors,
  62. plants
  63. especially quirky ones life succulents,
  64. roses,
  65. iris,
  66. lilies,
  67. respect,
  68. wisdom,
  69. self-control,
  70. help especially when needed,
  71. courage,
  72. pets,
  73. wildlife
  74. especially hawks
  75. whales
  76. dolphins,
  77. ability to choose a good attitude,
  78. health,
  79. healing,
  80. a good immune system,
  81. my bed,
  82. The Bible,
  83. light,
  84. warmth,
  85. Mass,
  86. the capacity to worship my Creator
  87. and to adore my Savior-Lord,
  88. fellowship with Catholics and other Christian believers,
  89. the gift of faith,
  90. the conviction of the sanctity of life,
  91. empathy,
  92. forgiveness,
  93. understanding,
  94. gentleness,
  95. strength,
  96. perseverance,
  97. patience,
  98. gratitude!,
  99. all that is Good,
  100. God’s amazing Grace
  101. and ability to turn all things for Good,
  102. rain
  103. and rainbows,
  104. storms,
  105. hope,
  106. far-seeing,
  107. details
  108. and small things,
  109. grandeur,
  110. paradox
  111. and interesting juxtapositions,
  112. pain and suffering that can be redeemed into intimacy with Christ,
  113. Christ’s resurrection
  114. and ours to come,
  115. beginnings,
  116. endings,
  117. sweetly resolvable dissonance,
  118. resolutions,
  119. II7 chords,
  120. smiles,
  121. tears,
  122. skin,
  123. babies,
  124. lovers,
  125. fertility,
  126. barren-ness that can yet be hospitable to The Spirit,
  127. deserts,
  128. mountain-tops
  129. and valleys
  130. and pastures
  131. and meadows,
  132. gardens of all kinds and sizes,
  133. quilts,
  134. laptops,
  135. notebooks,
  136. pens,
  137. paper,
  138. texture,
  139. smells,
  140. color,
  141. color upon color,
  142. seemingly infinite gradations of hue,
  143. transparency
  144. and opaqueness,
  145. goldfinches,
  146. purple thistle,
  147. candles,
  148. incense,
  149. fire,
  150. purpose,
  151. spontaneity,
  152. ritual,
  153. good habits,
  154. memory,
  155. a stretchable heart.